111| STAYING FOCUSED

I wasn’t sure if I was going to share a post this week. But I’m sitting on my couch and got the urge to come and just ramble. See if anything comes out of it.

These past few weeks I’ve been really locked in. Going to the gym, eating my meals, hydrating, just on my shit. Focused. And it’s working. I am finding myself looking forward to going to the gym! Lmao. And even when I take a day or two off I find myself missing it. How did I get to this point? Well I decided to go daily. Watched videos on YouTube to make sure that I’m using the correct form, and doing the work outs properly. I don’t want to hurt myself, and I don’t want the results to be delayed if I can help it. I also spent time on Pinterest updating my Gym and Home Work Out Boards. I also follow fitness accounts on Instagram. At the same time I also check out Vegan recipes and challenge myself to making something new at least once a month. It turned out to be two new things last month. Today is a rest day. I’ll be back tomorrow and the remainder of the week.

Spring is here!!!!! I don’t know if I said that last week but oh well lol. It deserves many shout outs. I love getting off work and being able to sit outside (on the warm days) and just unwind after the work day. It gives off the vibe that there’s still a lot of the day left to make my b**ch, lmao jk just wanted to see if you were paying attention. I said that last part with Ludacris’ voice 🤣 (Xenia, if you’re reading this “everything gon b r right!” ) I don’t know if you remember that I have a bird feeder in my backyard and I’ve been enjoying watching the Spring arrivals enjoying their free meals lol. Birds can be feisty! They will fight for their turns. Listen, this is my safe space lol you will not judge me for my bird watching hobby. And yes, I want binoculars just for this purpose.

I got switched to a different work shift due to my seniority. I get out a half hour early and go in a half hour early. It may not seem like a huge difference to you, but to me? Yes, it is! After my mom passed away I had to switch my work availability due to my son’s school hours. I could not work before 9 am. It’s a significant change for me. It’s personal.

Anyway, thanks for stopping by. As always, I appreciate your time and wish you a wonderful week. Looking forward to the great things the next few days hold for us all 😉. Did you notice the number of today’s post? Of course my spirit team is supporting me with my goals and dreams. They just love showing off!

Love, light, the shadow too, Cin.

99| A LITTLE CATCHING UP

I wasn’t really planning on writing anything for the next few days or weeks. I’d come on and stare at the blinking cursor for a few minutes. Throw some pictures together and then scrap the entire thing.

I like keeping things organic and not forced.

So, I decided to just be honest and bring you in on what’s happening.

Right now I am at a time that I have shedded a lot. My brain is accepting of the fact that things have changed and I am wrapping my mind around all of what’s changed. And getting to know the new. It can feel over whelming at times, scary, but it’s feeling less and less lonely. Although it may not seem that way on the outside. Within I am feeling more and more at peace. My Faith is stronger than ever. I just know without worry that everything will be okay. Everything. Yes, things may feel differently in the moment but everything that has not killed me has always, always made me stronger. And I’m sure that if you look at yourself and your journey you can say the same. I hope you can. Thats one of the beautiful things about life.

I have been throwing out a lot of things and packing things up clothing items for donation bins. I am literally declutterring my life and the space around me. I sorta did the whole Marie Kondo thing where you hold an item in your hand and thank it for the good times. Or thank it for keeping you warm (if it’s clothing). I recommend doing this multiple times throughout the year. Why? Because today one may decide to hold on to something a little longer, and then a month from now one may be ready to let it go. For me, the less items in my space the better I feel. It allows the energies to flow better, I get inspired and more clarity that way. I also need the space because I want the clothes that I wear to reflect who I am and what I am feeling. It really is a form of expression for me. And if I hold on to the things that I no longer need or connect with I wont have space for what I do need and connect with. I also plan on sharing more about all of the redecorating that I’ve been doing ☺️.

No pictures today. Speaking of pictures…The other day I realized something that to others may not seem like a big deal. But I have not taken any photographs of myself in weeks! I mean weeeeks! I don’t know why lol. But that’s going to change. I want to dress up and play with my makeup and just play in front of the camera. It’s something I’ve always enjoyed doing privately.

And before I go, I am happy to report that I have fully recovered from that virus that was going around. After a week and a half of vomiting, constant nausea, foggy head, headache and low low energy… I am healthy! I am so thankful that my body was able to do what it needed to to get us here.

I had mentioned in one of the last posts that I had been taking care of somethings health wise and after the big C word was mentioned by the doctor I am glad to report that results have came back and I am okay! Just going to keep monitoring things during the next year or so. I am having a procedure within the next few weeks and I’ll be able to put everything in the past. I also want to do a little something to celebrate. Can’t wait to share that!

And on that note, I hope you’re well and healthy,

Love, light the shadow too—-Cin.