This post is for those of us that menstruate. Whether it’s monthly, twice a month, once every four months—whatever your cycle. This post is for us.

I refer to it as that time of the month. Or amongst my friends we refer to it as being “crispy”. It’s when we’re feeling irritable, cranky, need our space and understanding. I didn’t come up with it. It was introduced to me ;)

I’ve had mine since the age of 14. And ever since then they’ve been awful. I’d bleed through my jeans. My mom would have to come and drop jeans off for me in High School. So, to avoid that, I’d carry a pair in my backpack just in case. I’d later on try birth control and didn’t like how it made me feel. It also didn’t help manage the flow. It made it worse. Years later (a few weeks ago to be exact!) I finally had enough of the waking up in the middle of the night after a heavy wave came down. It always reminds me of when my water broke years ago, in the wee hours of 3ish in the morning. I rolled out of bed ninja style. Feeling defeated—knowing I’d stained the sheets. I won’t lie. I cried. That following morning I ordered my two first pairs of period underwear! Side note: This post is no where near sponsored. I just want to share my experience with these life changing draws, this first go around.

Let’s talk about the underwear. I was first introduced to them by a social media influencer based out of London @nellylondon. I don’t follow many but she’s someone that promotes body positivity and isn’t always selling her followers something. The first thing that I did was confirm that they shipped to the US which they do! I added the site to my favorites and went on with my life. Until I had enough! And ordered my first two pairs. I went with their “Recycled seam free full brief” heavy/overnight in the color Earth Green in Medium. For comparison purposes—I wear a size 9/10 in jeans. I also ordered their “Sensual Hi Waist Bikini” in heavy overnight. Shipping was $10 and I paid a total of $73.50. I’ll admit it took a little while for them to arrive. They were shipped via DHL. But they made it! Just in time for my next cycle!

I can’t explain how well made these are. They’re excellent quality! They’re also very soft. They fit snug, which is good. I did wear a pad during my Heavy days. But didn’t wear one on my medium/light days. They’re fast absorbing. If that’s the correct way to put it. I didn’t feel moisture with them on. And they absorb odor much better than pads!

The back part of the underwear has full coverage. The trim of the underwear are constructed in a way that they don’t ride up. It’s not like they have rubber on them to prevent that. I don’t know what wizard sewed these lmao but they’re IT!

I will most definitely invest in more pairs. They’re truly period changing. Feel free to check out the website Modibodi.

Love, light, and the shadow side too—Cin.

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It’s been difficult for me to put these next moments into words. That’s why it’s taken so long to continue. I am someone that thinks before they speak. And the “right” words just weren’t coming to me. So, here I am, just going with the flow and putting some words down. Because I know that the story will start to unfold. And it’ll be the way that it was meant to be. So… come along.

Let’s see… Where did we leave off? Oh! Martin the Irishman had passed away. I saw as his spirit ascended until I saw him (I saw myself but as Martin) in a dark space. All he could see was the person that he had learned in life was Jesus. And when Neoshi asked if she could speak to him, Martin walked into Jesus’ opened arms and sort of melted into him. And that’s when I took a back seat. I was conscious and could still see the daydream style imagery, and could see what He spoke of, but the words were sorta just coming out of my lips. They weren’t mine. My energy was also different. I felt a lot of love. Too much of it at once. Tears would just flow out of my eyes while He spoke. The moments of love that I witnessed from another past life (more on that soon, I got you!) were more profound and intense than any of the hurt that I had felt from my the moments I saw from my lives as Martin, and the young boy in the hole—Eric. He also felt like a hippy lol. Felt like just go with the flow, peace and love. All of the cliches lol! All bundled in one. He felt like it all.

“I am the one you call Yeshua.” were the words that came out of my lips after Neoshi asked “Is there a name that I can call you?” He shared that he’s been with me in many lifetimes. He has walked with me. I was reminded of the Footprints poem. You know, the one when Jesus was carrying you when you thought you were walking life alone? She also asked why I was shown the lives of Eric and Martin. Eric represented fear of abandonment, and to remember that I have all that I need inside of me. When he was saying that, I was seeing myself as Eric getting out of the hole. Which was something I hadn’t been shown earlier. And Martin showed me a life with an ancestor, showed me hard work, I worked independently and owned my shop. And to celebrate myself! Because when Martin partied, he partied lol. That lifetime, has inspired me in this one. I’ll keep the how to myself for now. And it explains why I’ve always wanted to just roam freely in open land, rolling on the lawn, walking barefoot. Just doing what I did as a child in that lifetime. Even the Mountain’s in the background is something that I’ve yearned for in this lifetime and couldn’t explain why?

Yeshua answered the questions that I had written and sent to Neoshi. In the session that I booked you can ask a total of 15 questions to ask your guides or whoever comes through. He also shared that he led me to Neoshi. That we knew each other from an earlier lifetime. I saw a dark, dark, woman with short short hair sitting on the flat dirt floor in the middle of a teepee styled hut. That woman had a baby wrapped in cloth and she was rocking the baby back and forth all the while saying “my baby, my baby.” I started to cry. Because I felt how much she loved me. The baby. Her baby. I then saw myself around the age of 3-4 years old holding her hand. We were standing somewhere and she was standing next to me. I was looking up at her with pride knowing that she was my mother. I had a sense of knowing that she was respected in the community and I was beaming and just so happy to have her as my mom.

So, there you have it. Yes, it’s true. You shouldn’t dwell too much on the past. But, this was different. It is different. I was able to receive some healing with the assistance of Neoshi, Yeshua and myself. I’ve been feeling more excited about things, when before anxiety would take over. I also made a major life decision, one that I was afraid to do. But, I did it. And I’m still here! I got this! You got this!

Before I let you go, I had a memory pop up from my life as Eric. I saw how I got myself out of that hole! Remember the roots on the dirt wall? Well, I braided those suckers together. All the way to the top! I then climbed out of there. Crafty since day one huh? Lol. Thanks for reading!

Love, light and the shadowy side too, Cin.

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